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The CP Beatings, Data Collection, and an Open Letter to Peter Angelos

April 14, 2010

Okay so it’s blowing up the news casts about this kid in College Park that got beat by police officers after the Duke/Maryland game because he was “kicking the horses” and that’s why he was beaten senseless. Go here if you’re interested in seeing the story that was on the news today. While this happened over a month ago, this is making national news because of the release of the video.

Not that I advocate the riot police’s behavior, but Rt. 1 after a Duke game, especially after one where we (and I say we because I’m still a terp) won is crazy. Now, a brief explanation for those that aren’t familiar with the Maryland tradition of rioting. This guy got it right when he said that the riots of this year are close to the riots of 2002. But, let me express something for someone who went to Maryland in 2002. The police were unprepared for the true melee that occurred when we won the national championship. I would like to say I was part of it, but being laid up with a fractured elbow means that you’re lucky to be able to move much less jump on lamp posts. The true excitement that we finally finished first started a tradition of riots and crowds in the streets that leads me to one conclusion.

The University of Maryland was founded in 1856, and the city of College Park largely grew up as the campus grew and expanded. Riverdale, Greenbelt, even areas as far as Landover have benefited from the University being placed where it is. With that being said, Rt. 1 is a major highway from north to south that is still used today. It is a major shell shock (pun intended) when the riots occur…because of traffic.

The riot gear has remained a mainstay during basketball season in the College Park police station. This poor fellow McKenna got caught up in a mess that he couldn’t handle and ended up with a gash, contusions, and a concussion. My guess is that he was belligerent to the cops and they went after him. Make it right what the cops did? Nope. Just sayin’.

Meanwhile, on the data collection front, things are going swimmingly. Nuff said there.

Dear Mr. Angelos-
As a long standing Orioles fan I must say for shame. It’s been a long time Mr. Angelos, a long time. I’d like to be one of the few that actually welcome you into the 21st Century with a brief history. I’ve been an Orioles fan since the 1982 year shortly after Cal Ripken joined the team. I’m a loyal hometown fan, I’m sure you wouldn’t know being from Pittsburgh as the Pirates haven’t had a good season since…what did that T-shirt say? 1992? Oh yeah… a year before you bought the O’s. Now, don’t get me wrong, I recognize the many works you’ve done for your Alum as well as for the rest of the city. I get that.

I was all behind you when you refused to sell the naming right to Camden Yards, I said way to go Angelos.

Then you hit your lowest attendance record in the 15 years of Camden Yards. So, I looked up a bit of statistics. We’re 1-7 this year boss. 1-7 is the worst record we’ve started out with in the history that I’ve been watching the O’s, and that’s close to 30 years. We ended the year last year with an average batting average of .268 which even the beloved Cubs did better than that. We’re heading lower and lower every year, and with the Tejada factor…well, here’s what I propose.

Sell the team. Please. I beg you. Either sell the team or get the f*ck out of the ballpark and leave the real coaching, hiring and firing decisions to the people that know the game and aren’t litigators. Before you go rambling to me about how we’re outmatched in the AL East…I’ve got one example for you. Just one. And their name…I’ll even link the page for you because I’m so nice…

The Tampa Bay Rays. We can’t win for losing! This town is dying to remain a baseball town. We’ve fallen in love with our beloved Baltimore Ravens we wanna fall in love with the O’s again. We really do. The poster of Markakis is really inspirational.

It’s not putting people in the seats because we suck. If Cal Ripken offers you money for the team again…take it. Please. Give it to someone that can actually handle the team the way they should be.


Anxiety, Weddings, Romance

September 21, 2009

You know, when I sit down and write these at times, I don’t quite know what I’m going to say, so the fact that the title comes up more than not seems kind of crazy. What’s there to write if you mandate it by the title?
Do you remember that movie, “A Walk to Remember”? God it doesn’t matter if it’s mid afternoon or in the middle of the night if that movie is on I’ll sit down and watch it.

As I sat down and started watching it I started to think of things like this wedding, and everything else. I don’t know, it’s one of those things that you’re just sitting down and figure out how women versus men goes back to the movie.

I miss that type of romance. I miss it a lot. It never ceases to amaze me that men start out different relationships that they are terribly romantic and go out of their way to make sure that you fall head over heels in love with them. Then, suddenly, it disappears. No more romantic phone calls, no more sweet words, no more nice emails, nothing. There’s such a feeling of loss at that point. Now that I’m planning this wedding by myself and the feeling of being alone is greater than ever.

It sucks. It’s like men feel like the work has somehow ended and they have the right to ignore you and just assume you’re going to be around.

It’s sad. I’m going through so much with this wedding. My mom asked me why I don’t want a full service for the wedding. How do you express to your mother that loves you and cherishes you that you don’t nearly have the stance in religion that she has? I never wanted the full service. I still don’t. I think that to a certain extent it takes away from what I want. I want to be able to dance with my soon to be husband on our wedding day.

There’s a lot of wants, that are all down to me.

Scary hmm?

Still having it, Michael Vick, and moving on…

August 16, 2009

So, I initially really got knee deep back into this blog because my now fiancee was moving and I needed something to essentially take my mind off of him being so far away. Now that I have friends that are finishing their PhD’s (and are no longer wannabe graduate students, but actual legit docs); I’m starting to realize that a lot of what this blog means to me, is that everything that has ever been stuck in my brain is allowed a place to release, take flight, and say screw it.

Like my soon to be father in law, he doesn’t get it, it doesn’t make sense to him why have a blog, why write it all down? To me, in my mind, that seems like a real simpleton type view. That you’re just not complex enough to do things.

So, alas…my girl Kristen is moving. She’s a local like me, has lived here her entire life like me, she finished her PhD and is moving to Richmond. As much as I’m sad for her to go, the night will be and always has been very interesting when she’s involved. Tonight was no different. We went out to Little Havana tonight for some goofing off, drinking, looking cute, and hanging out. Cute guy rolls in with his buds and some chickies and I gotta tell you, for someone that’s engaged, he was hot. Like wicked hot. I figured giving the Orioles jersey that he was local, and just was gazing, looking, enjoying the art of being female. So, it’s funny…I never EVER had this kind of nerve when I was single. But, given the fact that I had two single friends I was like screw it, if he comes over I’ll hide the ring and talk to him.

Then I thought…the guy would be kinda pist about this. So, I was straight up, he was of course disappointed, but he also gave the vibe of trying just a tad too hard. I’m sure that he was bummed that he got the nerve to talk to a chick and she’s engaged, but I gotta tell you that it felt good that I got a cute guy not only to compliment me (which he of course ruined later) but to hit on one of my friends till of course he screwed it up.

I was proud of myself, I couldn’t help but think, “I still got it.”

Meanwhile, Michael Vick was signed by the Philadelphia Eagles. As much as I have grown up as one of the fans of the two best teams in football, the Washington Redskins and the

Something’s going to happen ~ Chances are 50/50 they’re going to be pretty good…

May 4, 2009

“and I’m willing to take that risk.”

I’ve got to tell you, for someone that has been dealing with a disorder for longer than the other part of her life, I saw Michael J Fox on Actor’s Studio tonight.

He brought me to tears. He deals with the pain with a seemingly relative ease. States that it’s terribly painful, but moves on. Moves up, gets past it. There is something so wildly refreshing from that. I have always felt to a certain extent that when people would tell me, “Oh you’re so strong.” I would like laugh it off. I guess now I need to start saying thank you. It was one of those things that you just do.
What are you going to do?
With any disorder that you have to deal with, it’s one of those things…it’s hard to say…harder even to explain.
No one tells you “Oh you’re going to die.” No one tells you how or what to do next. You go to school, and people try and extract you out and holler at you, and all you can do..honestly, is just go on. Fight.Fight really really hard. Everything becomes very aggressive and it becomes a “Screw you” or get screwed type of persona. I think to a certain extent that’s why I become so aggressive towards things.

I am firmly convinced that is why I’m with my bf to this day. I was aggressive towards how I felt for him for one reason and one reason only.

I knew in my heart that if I didn’t tell him how I felt I would never forgive myself. I would eternally hurt in my heart if I didn’t let him know that my heart yearned for him.

It’ll be 5 years on Saturday.

My heart still hurts every time he parts from my company.

Tales of a Wannabe Graduate School Dropout: I at this point wonder…

April 29, 2009

How I’m slowly but surely losing my faith in humanity. So, just to catch people up:

I’m officially done the “testing” part of my “testing” in my dissertation. But, there’s a catch. My advisor decided that he didn’t want to “retest” me, and decided instead to use my research proposal as my “test”. This has put entirely way too much weight on this proposal and I’m basically getting and shelling out nothing but grief. I’ve got to hand it to myself, I’m freaking out over this way more than the concept of just taking an oral exam.

I recognize as an adult I can totally walk away from this and be totally fine, but given the fact that I’ve chased this forensic science dream for so long, and for so hard, the idea of walking away from it at square zero and starting all over again…well, it’s annoying as crap.

I also wonder how my other students get by with all the crap. I’ve got to tell ya, I don’t teach, have been lucky to be on a research assistantship the entire time, and although I have had huge issues with money, and at this point spend way too much on commas…well, I have colleagues in the department that I work in and they teach, have research issues just like I do, have personal issues and other things just like I do, and they’re fine. They also have not one, not two, but three oral exams all at once. I think if they knew it was coming, it wouldn’t be so bad.

It’s hard to say. All I know is that I’m now at the point that not only do I have a short temper, but I’m also starting to figure a couple things out. I’m now at the point that I feel like I’ve been there too long, and I’m overly aggressive towards my work. I’m glad that people are graduating around me, as they are getting their own stuff done…but I would really like to be amongst them, whether they are ahead of the average or not.
I feel like to a certain extent, when I get to the point where I truly hate it…like passionately hate it, I’ll go. Regardless of my bf being in the midwest, for us struggling through a long distance relationship.

It’s odd…for once. In almost 33 years….it’s about me.

Odd hmm??

Oh and by the way…

April 9, 2009

Be forewarned profound swearing in the following post.

I completely forgot. This fucktard of a sportscaster decided to diss my town. So, here’s how we go: Colin Cowherd kiss my ass. The city of Baltimore has HUGE issues with not only with MLB and Peter Angelos. It’s not Bud Selig you nimrod, it’s Peter Angelos. Think about the AL East moron.

What do we have with the AL East? NY Yankees, Boston Red Sox, Toronto Blue Jays, us, and the Tampa Bay Rays. NY has had a history of winning, the Red Sox and the Rays have won World Series as of recent. The big rip about Mark Texieira?

Here’s the thing about Mark Texieira….Mark Texieira is born and raised in the city of Annapolis. The state capital of this state by the way. He has always stated in the variety of venues, excluding your show of course, that he would of course play for the Orioles if given the opportunity and the amount of money available was worthwhile. It wasn’t there, fine. He’s been booed for the past three days coming back to Baltimore and that in my opinion is how it should be. By dissing us for Boston, that wouldn’t be a big deal. For the Angels, no problem. He had to go to the place where everyone that’s born and raised within 50 miles of the city of Baltimore (which includes the now defunct Expos turned Nationals) knows is heathenous, the fucking New York goddamn Yankees. Yes we know it’s a rivalry that is one sided, no one gives a rat’s ass.

He’s a sell out. Hey, more power to him I say, you want to be a sell out go for it. But admit it. The NY Yankees have had a series of sellout players that panned out into nothing. Baltimore has a rich history of being a training ground for good players, per your example aka Miguel Tejada. So, Mr Cowherd, it’s gotta be said here.

Stay outta Charm City because there’s no Charm involved in your show. I listened to your one clip you piss pour piece of shit. You wanna talk about the Rust belt? Talk about “small cities”??? Until last year did you even BLINK at the Philadelphia Phillies? Nope, that’s right you didn’t. Guys like Chase Utley just came into their own two years ago. It’s a build up. It’s a restructure.

Don’t get me wrong, we know as O’s fans that we’re never gonna be the best in the world. But…let’s be honest, you’re so happy that Texieira punked out his hometown for the Yankees, where were they in the playoffs last year? Hmm? Anywhere?

Oh yeah, they weren’t.

And according to the most recent census: We’re 500,000 people behind Philadelphia. So, go talk about your “big” cities and kiss my ass.

Bringing curiousity to the masses…

March 31, 2009

So, I wanted to parlay a story that I read in today’s addition of the Explore Howard. See here for the actual story.

So, let me take you back to 2007. Kirk Mercer was driving home from work on the Baltimore beltway, like hundreds of people in this area do everyday. Coming from Liberty Road, he interacted with Michele Bosley who was driving at 60 mph, and passed out behind the wheel of her car. They crashed and Mercer was killed. Bosley’s sodium level had dropped to dangerous levels due to an anti-epilepsy drug she was taking to prevent seizures and that’s why she passed out.

Today, Bosley was sentenced to 10 months home detention, 5 years probation, and a 10 year suspended prison sentence. However, the judge in the case said that if she ever gets behind the wheel of a car again he’ll throw her into jail faster than she can start the engine.

I was conflicted when I read this article. Why you ask? Is it a tragedy? Absolutely. Is it terrible that Mercer’s children will never get to experience their father first hand in their adult years? Yes. Could it have been prevented?


As much as I’m a firm believer that any disability should not prevent you from the daily goings on of your life or what you want to accomplish, I know that I was taught the day that I started having problems with my health that to a certain extent you have to know when to say when. It’s a horrific loss of independence, but you think you might have seizures, you don’t drive. But, to play devils advocate here…they didn’t go into this in the story but it made me wonder.

Was she 1 year seizure free? 5? 10? 6 months? If she was seizure free, it would lead me to assume as a patient that I was okay to drive. It’s like taking medication. If you’ve been on narcotics forever for chronic pain, driving won’t be an issue, right? Or maybe it will. That’s the thing. Medication, not unlike most things is only as good for the person after trial and error. If there wasn’t therapeutic drug monitoring, people like me wouldn’t be employable. But, here’s the thing about this.

I feel like to a certain extent I take an additional burden on by being disabled and a science PhD student. It’s as if I’m not only getting my PhD for myself and my career, but for the disabled community. That somehow we can “do it”. I know it seems silly when it comes out here written all out like that, but cmon. How many disabled professors have you seen on college campuses? Not many right? So when this article came up today, it left me conflicted for a couple reasons.

1. I feel like to a certain extent, I don’t have a disability that will put another person in bodily harm. Now, if you’re walking in front of me down the stairs and I trip and fall down the stairs….yes I’m taking you with me. However, I will admit even myself there have been times that I have been in unrelenting pain while driving and there’s not a dang on thing I can do except scream and scream because I’m in the 3rd lane and out of four you don’t want to pull over on the shoulder of the fast lane and changing lanes twice just seems like something to concentrate on other than driving and not killing anyone.

2. In the law, I wonder if there are clauses of blame without neglect. Meaning, yes this person did something. But, was it true neglect? She was taking her medication regularly. The medication was the problem. How could one judge tell one person that they are truly responsible after that?

3. If I had sat in that womans shoes, I don’t think I could ever live with myself. Now, this isn’t something like the tragedy of last summer it’s different. That was with blame.

So, I am curious. Is the woman at fault? Should she go on disability and not work? Find another way to work? She’s being a productive part of society and something tragic has happened.

Meanwhile, I must add a quick recommendation here to the ladies of Shapely Prose some resourceful women that linked the great piece I saw in Jezebel the other day about dressing your shape. Bravo ladies for good work out of Chicagoland my home away from home.

Speaking of Chicagoland, go check out Ask’s Top 29 places to live. It will give you some good insight ladies.

I could ramble on and on…

March 30, 2009

So, it’s been about two or some odd weeks before I had a chance to sit down and throw some info down here about what’s been going on. I’ve been super busy and it doesn’t look to finish anytime soon, but I figured that I would throw some information up and let the cards fall where they may.
Speaking of cards…X-Men Origins: Wolverine is due out May 1st, and although I have always been a fan of the X-Men series, I’m SUPER excited that my favorite mutant, Gambit is coming out to play for the 1st time in the X-Men movies. It actually is going to be good next couple weeks for movies. The original cast is back for Fast and Furious and from what I’ve heard of the soundtrack I’m blissfully happy about it. Vin Diesel, Paul Walker, Michelle Rodriguez, the cars…man the cars alone would have me waiting for tickets for this movie. State of Play also looks like it’s going to be a thrilling movie. Of course this summer we’re also waiting on Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince for which of course I’m grateful and can’t WAIT to see. I saw Watchmen when I was in Chicago for my conference and I’ve got to say that seeing things in the IMAX is the way to see a movie, ESPECIALLY a movie like that. It was good but if you’re anticipating a movie that is a normal super hero movie, you will be grossly disappointed.

Life as a graduate student will hopefully mellow out slightly in June. So, when I initially took my comprehensive exam in August last year, I didn’t pass all of the exam. I passed some but not all. So, I have taken WAY too long to deal with this, and now I have one more exam to take, as I took my 4th (out of 5) on Friday. So, if the exam I took on Friday comes out, I’ll take this last exam. To say I’m nervous is an understatement. I’m tired of doing these tests though. It will be nice one way to come out in the wash.

I have had a hard time with people as of recent. I think it’s hard for me to read people, and I try really hard not to let people hurt my feelings, and in the meantime, hurt others. I don’t like that. I don’t like thinking that about people. But, here’s the thing. If I’m calling you on something, one of two things is happening. Either 1. You did it, and you don’t like being called out. or 2. I genuinely hurt your feelings. But, I’ve got to ask the few readers I have out there…if I legit apologize, isn’t that enough? I figure that I’m not the type to hold grudges, I have a tendency to either forget about it, or just to write you off. I will admit it, it’s either one or the other for me. But, if you legit apologize, that I’ll take what you said, say okay we’re cool and move on.

Why is it that no one thinks the way I do? *sigh* Maybe it’s just me.

Oh, and a last bit news bit here. The Mt. Dew Action Sports Tour announced their new dates for the 2009 tour, and I just have to air my disappointment here. As a skateboarding fan, I was blissfully happy that the Dew Tour will make a stop in Grant Park in Chicago…conveniently to boyfriend’s house right? Too bad it’s not going to be the skateboarders!!! It’s not going to be any skateboarding in the 2nd city…no no…they’re going to Boston.

What’s going on people???? I recognize that the boarding community got screwed here in Baltimore for the beloved Orioles that haven’t gotten out of the basement of the AL east in a long time, but I mean hey…at least if you’re going to build a park, you’re going to build a half-pipe, throw the event all at the same time please????

Catching Up…

March 21, 2009

So, with another test looming within a week now, I’ve got to admit that I’ve been avoiding people online. Nothing against my few readers that I have, just that it’s now come to make or break time and so when it comes down to it, that’s where I’ll be.

A bit of a catch up though:
1. Chicago was awesome and sucky all at the same time. P and I did squabble a bit, I think he talks a bit of talk about how things haven’t changed, but it has changed. It’s like we moved out on one another and now we’re trying to rebuild the relationship. On the upswing, I saw S (see my old post about Portland) and it was good! P and S met, and things went okay, it was a bit awkward, because S made it really clear that he didn’t anticipate P to be well…P. P made it very clear that S was much louder than he anticipated. I think that it was such a shake up to P’s daily routine, that it sort of thrown him off guard.
2. Work has come to a head. I’ve quit writing online, largely on the orange bubble land due to the plethora of drama that seems to sit there, as well as I have a tendency to sit on there and like sit there. All day, and completely forget about work, and everything else. So, what ends up happening now? Occasionally I hop on the orange bubble land, goof off, don’t say much, and then get off. It’s nice. The bad part about not having that distraction is that I’m a really boring person. Perhaps not such a bad thing.
3. Spring is wonderful and sucky at the same time. I have been hiding out in my crappy little ghetto apartment due to the fact that when I go outside my nose will not stop running. I don’t quite understand it. It’s frustrating, this is my favorite time of the year next to summer, but it’s frustrating at the same time. It was funny, my doc called the other day and told me that I have a vitamin D deficiency, and I basically giggled. No kidding…it’s winter time.

That’s about it for now. I’ve been in and out for a while, results will be reported!!!

I’ll Never Be a Cold Weather Baby…

March 2, 2009

So, my man has always had this vision that despite the climate that we will go to these exotic places and be these exotic people and share our knowledge of our respective subjects around the world. I let him sort of have this dream with the hopes that he will eventually get to the point that I’m at that a beach house by the bay would be nice. That 70 degrees every day despite it being January or June would also be nice. I haven’t quite gotten him there, but he’ll get there I tell ya he will!

It snowed about 5 inches in the Baltimore area today. Although it was nice to sleep in, and it was nice to get some work done here at home, I must admit that Atlantis commercial looks better and better the lack of warm weather and the more hot chocolate that I drink. I loved that my neighbor (I live in a building with a lot of nurses) goes, “You okay? You need a scraper?” as I’m struggling to clean the couple of inches of snow off my car. It’s funny as I’m going through stuff as much as I’m proud that I’m being so independent and so on part of me wonders when flipflops will come back into style.

So, in the end the only thing I can figure out is…any beach town university need a theoretical physicist? 🙂